It Never Rains Forever

I listened to this song by Bethany Dillon called I Believe In You, right at the time that I felt down again. It's hard when you're in a dificult situation. You try to keep your head up, and you have good moments, but every once in awhile its out of your control and you are reminded of your situation again. But that's ok. because it happens. Hard times come and we learn from them and embrace the pain and try to move forward. However, the only way that I can move forward is by the grace of God.

I felt bad because my current sitaution is binding. I dream a lot because my situation does not allow me to live out those dreams just yet. I have a "difficult" family and difficult rules to abide by. But in my heart I know who I really am and who God really wants me to be and everyday He helps bring that out just a little more. But its hard when you've tried to show who you are at home, school, or church and that gets rejected each time. It's hard when you don't have someone walking with you and helping you keep your dreams alive.

I end up feeling invisible. I cope, I move forward. No more moping. No more pity parties. But that whole is still there. The bad isn't going to go away after all and that's okay, I guess. But in the midst of my invisibility and loneliness God proclaims these words: I believe in you. You are not invisible to me. I see you. I saw you before anyone did. That's why I died for you. Don't forget. I believe in you.

That brings me so much comfort in my darkest hour. Sometimes I feel like I'm not worth anything, that my life is but a speck in the midst of all these great lives. I desire to be great but great doesn't come fast enough. I have so much inside of me that I'm afraid to show. Afraid that I'll fail or break. I don't believe in myself. But God does. God could be working with the best. He could be choosing the people with the best abilities. Those with confidence. Those with strength. But no, He chose me. A weak, insecure girl who doesn't believe in herself. He chose me because He believes I have potential and He wants to show me Himself. What an honor! Makes me feel like I am worth something after all. And I find that beautiful.

God isn't with me because I'm a challenge. Because He needs more glory (ha, I turned this wretched girl into something good) no. He loves me for me. He's with me because He simply wants to. He never rejects who I am, never goes about criticizing everything I do. He just shows me love. For His own pleasure, He chose me. And out of His pleasure, I am blessed. He just keeps on giving and giving.

God believes in me even when he sees me crying. He cries over my pain for hours until I'm healed. God believes, so He dreams for me. When nothing comes from trying, I can remember that God believes in me. And that is all I need.
It never rains forever. Love will come to set me free from this prison. As time progresses I will be able to see the world with new eyes. See it for what it should be. All because He believed, believes, and will continue to believe in me.

05 - I Believe In You

Bethany Dillon

 
"I Believe In You"

When there's nothing to believe in, I belive in you
Forget the past and let my hand in yours be the proof
Though the strong could be my company, you're the one I choose
So remember, I believe in you

I know it feels like every eye is watching you
Waiting for you to fall, expecting you to lose
But I see victory, so all you have to do
Is remember, I believe in you

I believe, even when I see you crying
I believe, let me dream for you
When nothing comes from trying
Remember, I believe in you

There will come a day when love will lift you out of here
There will come a day when love will bring the truth
There will come a day when love will free you from your fear
And you'll remember, I believe in you

I believe, even when I see you crying
I believe, let me dream for you
When nothing comes from trying
Remember, I believe in you